D is a B!!

Depression is a Bitch!

I want to take it and stab it several times. I want to torture it and make it feel as I feel. It is a never ending battle of being yourself and the darkness that wants to take over. As happy as you want to be or try to be, your eyes say it all. My light is dimming slowly and all I want to do is be alone. Alone with the sorrow and darkening thoughts.

Depression is a Bitch!

I push everyone away, even those closest to me. I do not mean to, I just do not want them to see me this way. The scariest thought that runs through me is, why do I exist? If I did not have such a big family, friends that cared and siblings that had my back I would have done it a long time ago. I know it’s selfish of me to say considering how much I love God but the thoughts are at times overwhelming.

Depression is a Bitch!

Admitting to it is the worst because for many they see it as a sign of weakness. They it is all mental and it can just be shaken off. Another thing to consider is as a single woman not many men want to handle a woman whose mood changes like a light switch. Men shy away from it because they want a woman put together and right now, I’m a bunch of pieces to a puzzle trying to put myself together. Praying for a change. Praying for that missing light I have/had within me that is dimming away.

Depression is a Bitch!

Would I seek help? Of course, who wants to be sad everyday? Who wants to sit around thinking of ways to disappear without saddening others? Who wants to seem so weak?

Depression is a Bitch!

Especially when your demeanor is noticed by so many and others know how fun and happy you’ve always been. Now, you’re someone no one, not even yourself wants to be around.

Depression is a Bitch!

I pray to God that he brings my light back because Depression is a Bitch!


About travelingeyes

As I explore what this world has to offer me I share every moment with good friends and family. With a heart as big as the world I help many and love with all my being. Laughing is my drug, I get my fix from my amazing, hilarious and loving family. "Woodstock" is my nickname! Peace and Love.... Optimistic and laid back.... I picture life as a road map and make every moment in life memorable.... Crazy, Funny, Spontaneous, and Cute! View all posts by travelingeyes

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