Heartfelt

The love that a woman has for another individual is so surreal to me. They way they dedicate themselves to that one individual just amazes me.

For these past few years I’ve tried to live my life as if my heart were just an organ and love or those types of feelings for someone else do not exist. I must say that it’s easier said than done. There has to be some type of connection in order for you to even hang out with someone so how can one just go through life with no emotion?

I’ve tried it and am still trying it but, there comes a time when that one person comes back into your life and your heart starts skipping those beats. Your body gets all warm and tingly inside. That grin on your face just can’t go away.

So much time has elapsed. You’ve accustomed yourself to no longer believe the promised that these men speak of. You’re just going with the flow until they just grab and go. It’s unfortunate but it’s how you function.

Yet, there he was and you couldn’t confront him, hit him, yell at him. You couldn’t do anything but give a simple hello. So many questions to ask and nothing came out your mouth except family talk.

As time passed there you were hoping it didn’t end but, you already knew it wasn’t the same. So as the talks continued and time went on your emotions became numb again. You’d look at him and realize that it was no longer there. That flame you had in your heart burning and yearning for him had been put out. Now, you just worried and wanted to make sure he was ok.

The heart has a mind of its own and the way a woman loves is undefinable and unpredictable.