There you are and you won’t go away. There you are and I can’t stop thinking of you. There you are and memories just trickle in like rain on my window pain. Life becomes difficult to live.
The words they tell me become irrelevant because my heart no longer believes. It no longer has space for what is said. It’s cold and it is beginning to freeze. Soon it will be difficult to chisel through it or try to melt it away.
I’m a cold hearted Bitch now.
What happened to it being just different? What happened to never giving up? What happened to us?
I wake up dreaming of you. I fall asleep thinking of you. As much as I want to hate you I can’t. The beginning was difficult and each day gets better and better yet you, yes you don’t disappear from my heart and mind. It’s endless and I wish I could pop a pill or pull my heart out to make the memories and pain go away.
Here I sit going through the motions of life. Living my life yet feeling like something is missing. Is it you? I have no idea but it feels empty and there is nothing I can do but pray and hope for the best.