This Christmas I woke up in Kentucky with a phone call from my sis waiting for me to connect to Skype so I could watch my brothers and sisters in NY open their gifts. As I watched everyone at my mother’s open their presents I began to get sad and upset but there was no way that I would let them see me that way. I am one that does not like to have people worry about me. It’s just who I am. I was sad because I was not there to celebrate and joke around with them. I was not there to give my mother a hug or to hang out with my siblings and play with all the cool gadgets that they had gotten.
Not being there for the holidays is something that I will need to get used to if I want to continue on with this job and journey. With my seniority who knows when I will have a Christmas, New Years or Thanksgiving off.
After my Skype I got up and ready for work. I received a few Christmas messages from many of my friends and wish that I could have text a few other friends. Unfortunately, my phone broke and died on one of my missions running out of the car so I had to go out and buy a new one. The only contacts I have are those whom have text or called me.
My day consisted of flying four legs…. SDF-ATL, ATL-PNS, PNS-ATL, and finally ATL-MDW. I have ended my day eating a fajita and have a drink as I watch more episodes of Gossip Girl. I will probably end my night eating a piece of chocolate and heading straight to bed in all hopes that Christmas and New Years just fly by and I can jut forget about it. I hate being a Grinch or a sour puss but these holidays have me feeling the lowest of lows. I am pretty good at putting on a smile and pretending that all is dandy. I will continue with the fake smiles and silly jokes so no one worries and I don’t depress myself!
Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night!!